Seeitall, I am so sorry we have this terrible thing in common. Write anytime.
Maidden, I hope your situation is that you can just stop. Many people, like me, could not...we had to fade away to stay 'under the radar' long enough that the Elders would forget about us. It worked for me -- so far. I have loads of family, if I was DF'd it would cause a lot of problems.
You are young, stay here and read everyone's experiences, you may see why it may be a good thing to stop now.
Welcome!