I believe in devine intervention through experience. However, to accept devine intervention one has to be open to the "voice of god" though any and all sources.
Tuesday, May 8 1990. Approximately 1 or 2pm. I was home unable to go to work because of a great depression. I was standing in my livingroom, facing the tv in the corner by the windows, looking out the windows noticing how the blackberries had grown up. That was the only though I had....
Then a voice said, in my left ear, "Brenda, you have a problem with alcohol, and you will all of your life. It's up to you what you do with it".
Whoa, that's a weird thought!
Thurday about 7:15 my husband and I were walking toward the entrance to Ballard Hospital to visit his brother who had shoulder surgury. Walking in the front door was my sponsor and friend from my previous attempt at sobriety with AA. I called to her, we ran up and hugged. She said she was chairing the womens AA meeting and when I was done visiting my bro-in-law, suggested I drop in for a few. I did. I cried all the way home.
Friday I came home from work. I wanted to drink. There was only one beer in the fridge and I drank it. I wanted more, but to go to the store and buy more would admit to wanting more. So I started on the vodka. I hate vodka. I snuck the vodka. I NEVER in my past was bothered by wanting more, nor did I ever try to hide my drinking!
Saturday morning a friend called to say they couldn't go to the comedy club on Monday, his girlfriend was in the hospital. After tugging at him I found out that he had done an intervention and she was in treatment. "Tell P good for her!". When I hung up I though "what about me?"
That Friday night was my last drink. I quit Pot a week later.
Did "god" speak to me? Did (He She It They) step in my way and force me to look at myself?
Since I don't believe in that kind of god, but do believe in a Higher Power, YES. Emphatically, enthusiastically YES. I was devinely intervened upon. It may have just been my higher self setting me up, but whatever it was was too weird and too coincidental to ignore.
Hugs
Brenda