Hi, I'm so glad you stumbled across JWD. Warm welcome to the forum.
Ask yourself, what is the Governing Body so afraid of? Why are they determined to take away the freedom of each individual witness to read where and what they want to?
When they used to give talks at the meetings and conventions telling us not to read "apostate" literature, I used to say to myself, "It would be hard to throw it away. I'd want to read what they are saying." Well, no one ever offered me any of that kind of literature.
In 1999 we got our first home PC. We logged onto the interenet. I put Jehovah's Witnesses in the search looking for official information. I got a page full of results. One of the links lead to an informative page about Raymond Franz and other brothers and sisters who had been pushed out of the organization. I was intrigued. Life kept me busy, but in 2001 I started looking into all of the "apostate" sites including JWD at the urging of my friend.
My eyes were fully opened when I ordered and read A Crisis Of Conscience by Raymond Franz.
When you hear that there is no place to go if you leave the JW Organization, don't you believe it. There is a whole world of possibilities of places to go where your freedom to read, think and live as you want won't be restricted. And you'll be a better person for having left and gone on to freer pastures.
Please stay here and keep reading. You'll be very glad that you did.