I recognized since I was 8 years old that the resurrection doctrine of the WTS didn't make any sense. It involved no continuity of existence; the "life-pattern" that God stores in his memory is only a copy of the original...the example the Society used is that of recording music on audiotape which is a copy of an original performance, and which could be used to make thousands of copies of the same music. If God could resurrect thousands of copies of "me", which of them would be the real me? Or would I be long dead, rotting in the grave, and a later person would be created in the future that would think she was me, would have all my memories, but would not actually be me? For instance, what if I did not die at all but God still remembers my "life-pattern" from 20 years ago to create a "younger version" of me? Would I have no problem committing suicide then because I know I would in fact not die because my "copy" is now living? No, my copy would be "someone else". It was watching Blade Runner and its story about "replicants" that really made it seem so obvious that the Society's resurrection doctrine was an empty hope. To get around it, I secretly made up my own belief that tried to avoid the doctrine of the "immortal soul" and the Society's annihilationism. From Ecclesiastes 12:7, I conjectured that when we die our "spirit" goes to God in heaven and the spirit is our individualized life essence which God then stores for safe-keeping. Then, when God resurrects the dead, I thought he would send each individual's spirit to new bodies. I guess it was a heretical belief from the point of view of the WTS, but it was the best harmonization I could make between common sense and their teachings. There had to be some continuity of essence between the original and the resurrected person.
Now I realize that the Bible never taught a break in contituity between the two; in fact, it involved a "standing up" again (anastasis) of the person who died. But that's a subject for another post.