WP:
While the lower level of followers watch in awe and contemplate their unworthiness.
So what about the question about the elite drinking blood once a year? or the symbol - WT jargon same thing. Isn't anyone ever stumbled?
Speaking only for myself, I'd say yes...the sense of unworthiness, not being of the elite, not being truly worthy to God.
There was a period of several years where I very sincerely thought I was one of the anointed. I won't bore you with irrelevant details, but, for various reasons, I never partook.
In retrospect, now I can see that I was a psychological and emotional victim of a hierarchical religious system that "held out the carrot" to me, on a 1,000-foot-long pole.
One of my Bible students was also "stumbled" in the face of this doctrine, and another family I knew was torn apart because the mid-20s father purported to be of the anointed, and had the audacity to actually partake. He was a virtual pariah from that point on.