I use to feel the exact same way as you, most of us in here did, until we started to think for ourselves. About what Paul said, you have been TOLD what that scripture means. If you are not too afraid to read what 'experienced' JW's say about this, click on this thread below.
http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/12/84299/1.ashx
You might be happier checking out www.silentlambs.org or www.freeminds.org