Blondie:
I believe Christ is everywhere in my heart as well. I also think there is nothing wrong with having a memorial service in the private of you own home. I choose to please my mother. I have been doing the Fade Away process like you have said in your past posts. If you read it clear I also stated: Pleasing God or my Family is a tough battle.
I have only been out for 7 or 8 moths. This is all I have ever known. People have a hard time letting go of certain things. For me this is one of them. I want to go Mainly for my mother I have to be honest with that. Also yes it is for Jesus. Do you think Jesus would be upset I want to worship him there? Also go for my Mom to please my mother as he pleased his father Joseph being a carpenter? Do you think he would think bad of me? I have let alot of things go in life. When I am willing and ready to let this one go that will be up to me and my choice. Others may agree or disagree but I have to live with myself and my actions others don't. If I can go to sleep at night knowing I have done nothing wrong I will sleep.
Brooke