Defd you are truly in the minority in the way you feel, its a shame not everyone is like you!!
I stopped going to meetings in the end cos Id had it. The pressure of going to meetings the back biting, judging , lack of love wore me down, but im not surprised ppl are like this everyones so tired, oh and they blame that on this system aswell but its the org.
The meetings are tedious and boring i felt it was me, it was only when I came on this site i realized what was wrong.
Now im trying to build up my relationship with Jehovah but this will be between him and me, without the spirtual straight jacket of the WT If you could just go to the meetings cos you wanted too and not cos youd get the 3rd degree if you didnt im sure the JWs would be a much happier lot
It was strange going in but it was like we had never been away, bit like the twilight zone
Also to class someone as spitually weak is insulting and judgemental, most ppl become society weak, it was the org that affected my relationship with Jehovah for the worst