I remember having these thoughts myself way back when I wanted the WT to be the truth, what I failed to think through was, even if every exjw on earth was wrong and "evil" that didnt make the watchtower "the truth". Even if the Catholic church is false, that didnt make the watchtower "the truth", one doesnt justify the other. You owe it to yourself to recognise the error of the watchtower and shun it as a false religion, unless you just want to please man and fear man rather than God.
Whatever you do, I wish you happiness in life, I only found it after I left the movement.
Brummie