I like this question: "What kind of Apostate are you?"
It makes you sit and think about it for a while. I looked up the word apostate in the dictionary and this is what I found:
a·pos·tate ( P ) Pronunciation Key (
n.- One who has abandoned one's religious faith, a political party, one's principles, or a cause.
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apostate
adj : not faithful to religion or party or cause n : a disloyal person who betrays or deserts his cause or religion or political party or friend etc. [syn: deserter, renegade, turncoat, recreant, ratter]
I found this definition quite facinating actually. I have been out of this religion for over 10 years now..been back and forth and finally made up my mind that I wasn't going to play games with them anymore and was sick of being a fence sitter just so that I could have a "guilt free" relationship with my parents. So, I wrote a letter to the elder that was harrassing me in my home. I made it clear that I wanted nothing more to do with them or this religion. So, I guess you would say that is when I formally "Disassociated" myself from this cult. I have found it extremely difficult to completely wash my brain free of all their teachings and indocrination. But I am working on it. I have not been to an "assembly" since just after 9/11/01. That is when I walked out of the assembly after a bethel "brother" prayed to God that we are better off than those people who died in the trade center.
To answer your question: "What kind of Apostate are you?"
I would have to say, I am an inquisitive apostate, a deserter of the JW faith that was ingrained in me since infancy. I was thrust out of the "nest" at 20 years old and made to figure out this world and learn how to grow into an adult. I am a happy well-adjusted married woman with 2 children who need me and a husband who is my best friend and lover and confidant. I am an independant apostate searching for the "truth" whatever that may be. I am free from the JW brain-washing that I had to endure for 20 years. Now I can finally figure out what being a "true Christian" is all about and raise my children with all the freedoms that was so harshly kept from me. I don't find any value in bashing this JW organization. They are a corporation who makes their followers stay out of fear. That is NOT how I want to live my life or teach my children.
I guess you could say....I'm a Happy..go lucky Apostate. I have left the anger and bitterness behind me and now lead a happy fulfilled life. I now have 2 kids to look after who need me to show them the world and that is what I am going to do!
SAM
