WLG;
That is quite the life story. You are talking about it, and writing about it, I believe this is far better for you than meds., I was told by a nurse to go get some medical help for my depression too. Yeah right, I don`t feel like existing that way daily ( doped up!) not raising a kid, but that`s me. I`ve often been told that keeping a journal of my past and my life now is very therapeutic, it could give you the results you need almost like sitting and talking to a shrink. You sound like a very nice, intellegent guy who is a survivor, hang in there and keep reaching for tomorrow. Concentrate on being the BEST father you can be for your daughters, for they need you, and you are so much better than your father, keep telling yourself this. Because he really wasn`t a father.