The kingdom hall where I used to go has the Theocratic Ministry School and Service meetings on Tuesday. I have finally come to grips with my need to exit the Jehovah's Witnesses forever. I told my parents today that I'm leaving the JW religion behind forever. I told my dad because he isn't as emmotional as my mom. He took it well, and said that he knew this day was coming. He also promised not to shun me.
I have mixed feelings about the whole thing. I'm glad to be leaving it behind, yet I see the foundation of my youth going to the wayside. I guess that now I really am officially turning the chapter in my life. I have the letter written already, it is short and to the point. I am going to go and hand it in and leave. I don't feel like wasting a stamp. And I just feel a need to go in and leave one last time.
It just seems so strange. I always dreamed of living forever on a paradise, now I realize that was all a false hope. I've been out for two years now, but for some reason tonight just feels different. I know what I have to do. I just need closure. I hope this brings me the emmotional peace and contentment that I have been looking for.
Dustin