I know I cant be alone with this. You are fading, and dont want your friends / family from out of town to know that you no longer want to be a JW. They may know that you are not going to all the meetings, or not. But since the biggest deal to them has been the Memorial, they expect that you went.
We did not go. Our first time we missed it. Our family member has asked twice if we went via email, and I have so far ignored it. Sooner or later, when we speak on the phone or in person, he will ask and I will be cornered.
As you know, the opinion of our once loving family member would sour all the more. In fact, that could draw a line that would hurt feelings both ways. I know some of you are out there thinking, just tell them you did not go! Stand up for yourself and what you believe! I dont plan to go that route. However, I do not want to lie either. So, what should I say when he asks? There has to be a clever way of saying it.
"Naaa, not this time, maybe next year."
"Mind your own business!"
"Dont worry about our spirituality"
My DW is getting tired of the game, and its her family anyway, so this might lead to the big realization for the family that hey, they are worldly! That is so scary. Not as scary as actually going back to meetings though.
~cab