im feeling it again...help me through this please

by tsunami_rid3r 14 Replies latest jw friends

  • tsunami_rid3r
    tsunami_rid3r

    im having that feeling where if i couldve been able to do something in the past, life wouldve been better. like i wouldve been able to be much better friends with this person and that person. or if i did that sport i couldve become closer to those people. or if i wouldve been more open, i wouldve been able to have this relationship or that relationship. or maybe things couldve been better with this girl im liking right now.

    i feel like im an aquantaince or a little more with the people i deal with everyday. like im some new student. many underclassman like juniors and sophmores thought i was a new student. probably because of my total make over and open atitude for this year. but like i said at the beginning of the school year, i knew senior year would be just a preview of what i wanted because of the restrictions limiting me from doing anything.

  • Seven
    Seven

    Happy Birthday tsunami dude!

  • AlmostAtheist
    AlmostAtheist

    Time is like money -- once you spend it, it's gone. If you feel like you made some bad purchases in the past, the best thing -- and only good thing -- you can do is learn from it. Try not to let yourself dwell on "what might have been" or you'll wind up having this same conversation with yourself months or years from now, since you will have not used this time productively either.

    The good news is, unlike money, somebody delivers a fresh batch of hours to your doorstep each morning. So any bad purchases in the past can be learned from and set aside, since you get a whole new chance every single day. You're going to college, you've shucked off the cult that held you, and you've learned something that many people your age haven't a clue about: just because somebody talks convincingly doesn't mean they're right!

    Expensive lesson, but worth the price to spend the rest of your life innoculated against allowing yourself to be controlled by others further on down the road.

    Enjoy the rest of your life!

    Dave

  • hubert
    hubert

    Happy birthday !

    Don't dwell on the past.

    Look to the future, and learn from your mistakes, like "almost" says.

    Hubert

  • AuntieJane
    AuntieJane

    Hi tsunami! I'm a mom who's raised 3 kids...one of them dated a JW, which is what brought me here.

    B4 you think I'm older than sh*t...wait a minute. I know some of what you are feeling and it is all really normal. Yes, the JW stuff adds to it, but believe me, each one of my kids went through depression in mid teens to probably 20. My girls still deal w. it off and on. They are beautiful 'kids' and have found their own way. But I was there for them, maybe not to hand out the $$, but to offer support when they needed it.

    I just want to say, hang tough, you are doing OK. DOn't let it all get you down. You have come a long way...any chance of just getting out after this summer and working full time, going to college part time? BE careful with your finances, don't use a credit card if you can avoid that. It can kill ya.

    You can write me if you feel like it, I'm on your side. [email protected]

    Take care of your fine self!

    AuntieJ

  • MerryMagdalene
    MerryMagdalene

    Happy Birthday, _rid3r !!!!!

    I don't know how to help you, but I know you can make things better for yourself, one step at a time, one friendship at a time, leaving some things behind as you move forward to something better................ You can do it!!!

    ~Merry

  • OldSoul
    OldSoul

    tsunami,

    You will never outgrow the nagging, "I wonder." Eventually, you will realize that everyone around is largely a product of how their genetics reacted to being exposed to their environments. Then it will dawn on you that if that is true of everyone else it is likely true of you, too.

    Look at yourself through a stranger's eye. If you like yourself, cool. If not, start consciously choosing how you will react to your environment.

    And happy birthday. Many happy returns.

    Respectfully,
    OldSoul

  • tsunami_rid3r
    tsunami_rid3r

    hah wow my birthday is in 2 more days but thanks. yea i tell myself those things always.

    everyday brings new sun and a new start.

    live the moment, make the moment.

    remember good times.

  • Cygnus
    Cygnus

    Amen brother, amen. I have so many regrets from my high school days. It's hard to deal with. I am going to try to deal with them and so many other things. We can do it, man.

  • OldSoul
    OldSoul
    Tsunami: yea i tell myself those things always.

    I've been through it. Takes one to know one. Then there's that little guy that starts screaming into your ear asking why you keep thinking that way. You have to learn how to twist that sick ... well, let's just say you have to learn to silence the dark side.

    Respectfully,
    OldSoul

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