troubled:
As a current JW, I'm not very welcome here, am I?
You are, by the majority on this board, very welcome here and in fact I might say a lot of people are very happy you are here - looking at everything.
If you ever think you are not, I will be right behind you saying you are and support you all the way!!!!
At Randy's site there is a little thingy on critical reading and thinking and understanding what a "fact" really is and what an "opinion" is. I suggest you read it. Click on the following url
( http://www.freeminds.org/psych/criticalthinking.htm
For books go get Ray Franz's book Crisis of Conscience. If you want I will mail you a copy for free. Give your address to Maximus and I will send it your way. This book provides countless photcopies of old WTs, Awakes!, etc. and you can compare them with what is found in your hall library to confirm there was no "hanky panky. BTW remember the WT has gone to the supreme court in the USA more than 50 times yet they have not gone after Ray for libel - that should tell you something!!!! This ex-governing body member a good summary and in a fashion that is not mean to witnesses. His other book "In Search of Christian Freedom" is also filled with photocopies of the WT material.
Penton's book is also worth the time and filled with copies of direct WT material to back it up - But it could be a tough read at your stage in your cognitive dissonance.
Also what issue is that you really want to get into? The 607 BCE date, the 1919 stuff when Russel was the Faithful slave and no one else, the Blood history? What do you want to look at. Let me know and I or someone else can see what we can do.
I strongly urge you to look at all sides of the issue. Take the WT's articles and see if they can stand the test. If you notice any of my posts or Maximus' posts or Marvin Shilmer's post on the blood and blood pamphlet issues, we take what the Faith slave has said in their own documentation and compared it with the actual works. A classic is the Frank Gorman quote in the QFR of the Oct. 1/00 WT that makes it look like a respected Scholar of Theology actually supports a blood doctrine. Maximus shows the actual quote from Frank's book and you see what is actualy written.
Click below and see how Maximus did his research
( http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/forum/thread.asp?id=6288&site=3#101415
hawk
p.s. - I don't know if you have followd any of my posts but I have scanned all of the photocopies the the relevant pages say on Joseph Priestly or Louis XI or Pliny etc.
You want them I can Email them to you through people I know as well.