I must admit I never ever read anything unless I had to study it for the Watchtower study or bookstudy. I felt & still feel that the questions & given answers never really got to see what was in someones' heart, if they actually understood what was going on or if they were all just nodding like sheep cos' the didn't want to be looked down on as spiritually weak. I must say at one stage in my Witness life I was fired up and that ..... but I still had so many awkward questions that I would ask re: How can not speaking to disfellowshipped pple show love? Why do we say that 144 000 is a literal number when the just about the whole of revelation is spiritual?
It's sad but I think most of us were afraid of how the organisation/congregation/elders/fellow witnesses would see us, so we plodded along until we just could not take it anymore. I remember telling an elder (about 3 weeks ago) that this handing out of so called truths on a silver platter is not what is meant by "examing the scriptures" . It's being force fed.
We can be relieved we found the courage to move out because the faith does have such a hold on one. FREEDOM IS A GOOD THING