Six billion men woman and children about to die and what is important to them?
The more things change in dub land, the more they stay the same,this is my experience from the 1980's before i came to my senses and got the hell out.
POWER PRESTIGE P***Y
The saga of the,COOLS vs. the GEEKS
The trifecta of the 3 P's and they are,Power, Prestige,P***y and the compulsion to be "COOL" at all cost.What it means to be 'exemplary'.Exemplary means that you '$how what you owe'.
In 1989 a leading elder { that I trusted } taps me on the shoulder and tells me how he has telephoned the WT$ H.Q. Ivory tower,to inquire on,"how much longer can it last"."It can only 'last' just a few more months is the ominous reply".
Yes sir, this is heavy on my heart. Just how will I be 'found in the day of Jehovah's anger'?Will I 'probably' be saved?How do I conduct myself with the horrific death of nearly 6 billion men women and small children on my conscience?Will I be found 'blood-guilty' for not serving Jehovah to the fullest.[Col.3:23]
Who, should I look to as an example? What about the resident 'Bethelite'? He just did a stint at Brooklyn and was a ministerial servant,and is looked up to as "exemplary".
He is also considered to be the 'coolest' guy in the hall.In fact he drives a 'cool' two door Saab coupe.{the sisters are drooling over him}.He also subscribes to 'worldly',Rolling stone and Spin magazines.So he can be current with all the latest coolest 'worldly'. trends.
In contrast,I have heeded the WT$'s directive to only purchase a modest,$1,500.00 four door family style sedan.it's very plain and ordinary (geeky) I think it s**ks,I'm a 4X4 pickup man myself.But the Ivory tower say's only buy four door sedans
to facilitate,'car groups' for the sacred door to door 'field service'.
I'm making $50,000.00 a year and I drive a 's**t box'.because i am donating all my profits to the Watchtower $ociety.I am also at (age 29) still living with mom and dad, to economize on living expenses. geek I keep my nearly blind from birth mom,furnished with all the necessary appliances for sure.I even bought her a 25" color TV from K-mart.While the most popular(exemplary) family in the church has a wide screen TV.
I bought with cash, for a pioneer, a better car than I have.I am giving Thousands of dollars to the Watchtower's world wide work,while my family and I lives modestly.
For all my sincere earnest toil and goodness, I am loathed and ridiculed by my brothers and sisters at the Rockland Massachusetts congregation.
Sneering at me behind my back.Yes,they tried to pin a 'kick me sign' on my back.Squeezed into their mold a dumb geek,"who is so dumb,why he doesn't have the sense to be cool like us". 
This is the event that set me free. The god of these ass"wholes" is not the god i will serve . 