Just wondering:
Do you every regret the way you treated or shunned faders, d/a, or d/f people in the past while you wonder under the influence of the "cult".
If so have you every gone back to any of those people said that you were sorry?
I ask because there are a few people in my past that I discarded so easily and quickly, I am really conidering tracking them down in the hopes of making amends.
I don't know if it would do any good, but I know that I would feel better.