JohnHag:
Don't feel bad John! I was in it for 45 years, and a 3rd generation witness to. My Grandfather was a Russellite, and I still have the set of (Studies in The Scriptures), that were passed down through the family.
Just appreciate that your (free) now John! You may be able to help someone else become free from the (abuse) of the Watchtower.
We know how you feel John. Just keep looking forward to a (brighter) future, where you can have your own choices now.
I am happy for you John that you are free and on your way to a (better) life! Best wishes!