The KH and people in it make me so hateful (page 2)

tsunami_rid3r

Correction: There was only 1 elder who was concerned about me. He told the attendant to tell my dad. lol.

I wasn't effing sleeping. I was reading.

Call each one into the back room - separately.

(sorta just kidding, but not really. You'd have to keep your cool. Might just set them back on their heels a bit.)

'If your brother commits a sin, go lay bare his fault between you and him alone." - Matt 18:15

He thought he found fault in you. He could have right to you. Little tattletale.

Oh well. Whatever. You will be SOO ready for college by the time you get there!!!

-Aude.

googlemagoogle

ha! the haircut-situation.

been on the same boat. they always ran to my mother and told her about my "long" hair (i NEVER had LONG hair!!!!). then my mother would be under pressure and tell me things like "the haircut you had then and then was so nice" and stuff. they also always told the elders to tell me to get a haircut. i told the elders they should tell it to me, in my face, so i could talk with them. they said - no, why should seventy percent (i'd bet there were only very few who actually complained though) of the congregation come down to your niveau. i had enough then.

one day i just couldn't stand the pressure anymore so.... i shaved my head :-) they didn't like that either... lol!

tsunami_rid3r

Aude, that's hard to do. I'm like in deep shit already. Elders have called my dad. I feel I'm this close to disfellowshiping, and if that happens my parents won't have anything to do with me, they won't support me in anything. I feel like I'm always being watched by the elders. I hate it so much. Did I mention I can't wait until August comes.

I hate this religion. It can make me into a violent person sometimes. That day when brother elder did that, I was so pissed off, my eyes were tearing up. Ironically I started reading the Bible.

On the brightside I'm happy other people, such as my aunt, agree,a with the stuff I'm doing, like the moving out temporarily bit. She doesn't agree with my 'rents, so I'm happy that I'm actually doing the right thing. I'm happy for the actions I've made the past year.

Aude_Sapere

**I hate this religion. It can make me into a violent person sometimes.**

Actually, I can completely understand.

And my comments were a little bit fantasy. I know the fine-line you are sitting on and you are absolutely right. You need to just lay low until you are settled in your dorm (or whereever you will live).

The violent responses will hurt YOU the most though. Seems that there is less outburst than before. I think you are seeing something happier just ahead and that is helping you keep calm. Try to find peaceful and constructive ways to let off steam (deep breating, running, long walks, something physically exerting). The pent up anger will just end up hurting you in the end.

Just a few more weeks and you'll be on your way!!!!

Sorry it's so tough right now...

Hugs.

-Aude.

JV

Dude hold on just a little longer, 2 or 3 more months put on a happy face and fake it......... don't do anything too crazy. A little while longer and you'll be off in college and you'll be happy just don't mess it up in the meantime

rebel8

that you come to me first if there is something that I am doing that causes you concern. I have found that Jesus counsel to speak to your brother - in this case, that would be 'me' - before involving others. It's really the more grownup and loving way to be. Wouldn't you agree, Brother Edler?

Awesome way to turn the tables!!!

...tsunami, I thought your hair cut made it impossible to have the great honor of doing the sound...why did they make an exception?

HappyDad

Tsunami.............

After reading your posts, all I can say is to hang in there for whatever time you have to. You are smart enough to know what you are going to do and how you are going to do it. Going to college is the best choice you can make.

Take it from a (getting older) ex elder who used to think the same way as the elders who are giving you problems. In their mind (as was in mine) they think they are fullfilling their duty to help you to your theocratic senses, but they don't realize (just like I didn't realize) that all they are doing to you and other young ones who are able to think for themselves is pushing them out of the organization. Then once you are gone, they can't even comprehend that it is THEY who were part of the driving force pushing you out.

Just like the brooklyn borg who blames everything on the rank and file, the elders and possibly even your JW parents will only salve their own consciences and blame YOU for leaving the "truth". They will never admit that they were the major problem.

I once had that elder mindset and wish now that I could appologize to any young person I might have snitched on. Young people have enough on their minds.....they don't need any BS from elders on top of things. I'm sure there are many who are now in their late 20's and early 30's from my old KH who are now out of the borg. I haven't been there for almost 10 years (I resigned as an elder and went to another KH and faded a few years later) and would love to run into someone from my past JW life on this board.

Keep hanging in there and make yourself happy. The others won't understand why you are happy.

HappyDad

kittyeatzjdubs

next time just throw a slayer album in the tape player and walk your happy ass on out of there!

u don't have to put up with that sh!t!!!! christ i hate eldurs!

luv, jojo

Sunspot

All I can do is echo what everyone else has said. I feel so awful for you, despite having raised kids to try and be model JWs! I plead guilty on tha offense! (And it WAS offensive!)

You have many of us here to vent to and ask advice from (that you have already done) and it will continue for as long as necessary. I know "hang in there" is easy to say but much harder to DO!

hugs,

Annie

The KH and people in it make me so hateful

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