Krista..welcome and a big hug. Your story is a lot like mine. Once upon a time I was a totally dedicated, self sacrificing, morally upright little "witless" girl. But the only thing wrong with me was that I was the best looking woman in the hall...my dub husband even COMPLAINED about it !! I wore modest clothing, treated all the brothers with utmost respect and never encouraged anyone's attentions. I was hated nevertheless. One stupid sister even told me I had to wear a girdle because her husband was distracted when I walked up to the platform to take part in the Ministry school!!! LOL The worst part of this was that I was so sensitive I actually was embarassed and ashamed. Like I was responsible for this guy's dirty old man behaviour. Many years later I too came to find out that the private lives of those self-righteous morons would make soap opera plots look like Sunday school stories. So I know very well whereof you speak. Hope you stay with us...you'll learn a lot and I can tell you have a lot to contribute in return!