I was enrolled in college four months after I left Borgville. I had two young kids to raise and a burning rage to get as far away from those depressed, under-educated dumbed down weirdos as I could. You might be surprised to find out you're a lot smarter than you think you are. I went for a battery of IQ and aptitude tests arranged by a Canadian government workforce agency, alas long since gone...but was that ever an eyeopening experience for me. Perhaps you could find similar help as has been suggested by Jeannie at a college, at an education fair. I look back on the years I spent in college getting a real education as a life altering experience. My mind and my intellect just began to grow like a starved thing..which in fact it WAS...I wonder why?? LOL Go for it and see if you don't agree. You may find as I did that you have many talents and many gifts and thank God you have a second chance for life. I knew several bright, promising young people in that cult who have sunk into do-nothing, go-no-where lives and I pity them. I took unbelievable verbal abuse about going to college, and especially about becoming a nurse. But, I have walked on the Silk Road, stood on a desert plain strewn with petrified wood from the dawn of the world's beginning, seen the "howling wilderness" spoken of in Deuteronomy, camped in starlight on the landlocked skeleton of a coral reef in an ancient Arab kingdom far, far from home. This is the real meaning of EDUCATION....these are the windows that open once you close the door to the prison of Borgville. Go for it !!!!