hi
i've read some posts here and i could see that you were helping each other so i thought i could post & maybe get some answers :-)
i've known the JWs since i was little my mom was going to the kingdom hall but then we stopped cos our life was too complicated and we didn't have time for that thought we kept studying at home with a JW as i got older ( teen years ) i hated the study book but never told my mom or anybody i didn't wanted to hurt my mom i love her so much!
a few years ago i finally told my mom that i hated to read thoses books because i get so bored & that i wasn't interested in it , i do believe in jehovah's and jesus' existence thought but i so hate what the org ask us to do like don't dress like that , go to meetings ...
first reaction i got from my mom was so you wanna die but then after a long talk she understood , no matter what i'll love her forever
last year the JW that we knew who keeps bringin books at home ask us if we wanted another book study i couldn't say no , i had to be there for my mom
i've realised over the years that the JWs coming at my home somtimes aren't nice to me , i'm not a girl who shut her mouth when something's wrong & they don't like that so when i speak all they do is laughing at me , telling me that if i don't read books or do anything that god want He will kill me , that i don't understand anything , it's hard to hear somebody tellin you you're gonna die every week
sometimes i cry cause you hear so much about how nice JWs are and when it comes to me they're so rude
i did went back in 2001 at the kingdom hall and i was treated like a uninsteresting nobody , young people were looking at me so bad
omg i just realized how long my message is i hope i won't bothers anybody
i got questions but whenever i ask them nobody wants to answer
if i don't read the org books will i be killed just because of that?
how could a God that is love could kill a human just because he didn't read a book?
is there any other ways to be saved other than going to meetings , preaching , and reading thoses little magazines ( sorry i dunno the name in english ) ?
why women in the org are always treated the macho way? ( like whenever i did a study they were like the man's the boss of his wife , she has to do this & that )
THANKS for reading me i'm really lost right now