Aaaaarrgh!
Like so many others, I'm trying to do the slow fade from JWdom. Don't need to give you all the details again but wanted to share something that has really started to bug me!
My mother!!
I love her to bits - BUT!
Now that she knows I have doubts about the 'Truth', now that she is aware that I might not accept the 'Society' as Jehovah's Channel she seems ready to think that I am capable of condoning any immoral act or believing every unscriptural teaching!
Aaaaarrgh!
My sister, (I'll call her Mary), and her husband, both JW's, have been unable to conceive since they married in the mid 90's. They've tried IVF without success but have chosen not to go down the route of freezing embryo's because of the WT stand on this issue and, to be fair, their own moral objections to it. Fair enough.
When I tactfully tried to discuss this with my Mum she immediately jumped to the conclusion that "now I even support abortion!"
In fact I don't - though I hope I'm a lot more tolerant of others opinions on this emotive issue than I once was.
The thing is, I was just trying to reason with Mum about the options open to Mary. I tried to explain that a womans body will naturally and spontaneously abort four times as many embryos as it will accept and nurture to full term.
I asked if it could really be termed abortion if some embryos did not survive - if this was a part of the process involved to create a new child for Mary and her husband.
The whole point of the process would not be to destroy life but to CREATE IT!
After all, they would only be trying to carry out their Creators command to be fruitful. And it may well have taken ALL the embryos produced to ensure a succesful pregnancy anyway!
Mary is a sweet, and loving woman. She would make a great Mum! Her child would grow up with parents who had struggled to bring their child into existence - they would undoubtedly cherish it. It would have loving uncles, aunts, cousins and granparents.
My Mum was torn. Of course she wants her own daughter to experience motherhood. Of course she would like another grandchild and love it dearly - but she still feels the price to be paid would be too high.
And now she looks at me as if she barely recognises me for even suggesting that Mary should think about her options.
I love my Mum but it seems that in her eyes I am gradually 'siding with Satan'.
I can see the pain in her face when she looks at her son who once pioneered and served the congregation as its favourite rising star.
For those of you who know what I am up to - I AM SO READY TO SCREW THE WATCHTOWER TILL IT SQUEALS!
Nic'
angry, hurting, vengeful and feel very fucking unchristian today...........