Annie Hang in there, dear friend, and try not to beat yourself up over the mistakes. We have all made them just by BEING JWs at one time. BIG warm hugs,
Annie
Thank you again ! My sweet (never-been-a-JW) wife is always telling me not to 'beat myself up', too. But, never neing a JW...it is hard sometimes to understand why I need to spend (for now) so much time with XJW's. It IS hard for 'outsiders' to understand the comprehensive scale of damages a cult can do to folks, even if they have escaped.
You are a sweet Mom and I hope your other kids open their eyes and really see you again. I'll bet your oldest sons family will take the lead in helping his siblings understand and forgive you.
One of my daughters had gotten close to me for a while, then ran away scared with the 'apostate' thing. I have more hope now after reading your story...that she will come back, then 'lead' my others here, too.
Get along now...you've got kids & grandkids to chase down.
You're a MOM again ! Hoo-ray for you !
Hug back to you...The Rabbits