We trudge along in our little lives, worrying about bills and disagreeing about who should put away the laundry, then WHAMMO!!! The love of your life can be gone in an instant.
We returned from a weekend trip visiting family and suddenly my husband was vomiting blood, lots of it. He was in the ER within 30 minutes and in the ICU in another 30 minutes. The cause was detected by endoscopy and he's now on the road to recovery. What bowls you over is the speed in which your stable, boring life can be turned upside down.
Sunday my hubby and I were sloshing through mud puddles on a 4-wheeler. I remember kissing the back of his neck and he kissed my hand which was around his waist; I was thinking how happy I am and how lucky I am to have him.
Just hours later he's curled up in a hospital bed, looking especially pale against the blood that's smeared everywhere. My big strong, vital man so quickly turned helpless and feeble. I spent the hours either watching his chest rise and fall, or resting my cheek on his forehead. Seeing his signs of life and feeling the warmth of his skin helped invalidate the images of death that were hard to keep out of my head.
I know in the days to come we'll still worry about bills and argue about mundane things, but for now I'm savoring every minute of his presence on earth with me NOW.
Time and unforseen occurances befall us all. Don't take your loved ones for granted! Appreciate them now! Don't wait until a brush with death to be tickled pink you can hold their hand or kiss their cheek.