You're a free woman now. Go and see your mother and tell her what you feel. There's NOTHING to lose. There are no longer any chains around you. I doubt very much she'll turn you away. You may be surprised at her reaction.
Good luck to you, remembering that in life you have to aim for 'no regrets and nothing unsaid'!
I haven't seen Mom for almost 12 years now. I don't know how much longer she has left before she dies. She's 78 this year. I heard she is ill with a rare form of Parkinson's. I doubt she will ever read this, but I am really sorry for taking her baby away from her. In a different world it wouldn't have had to happened, but life in this world is so unfair for a parent and child who love each other, but are so diametrically opposed in their life paths.
It's still not too late who knows it might be the beginning of something great. I hope her JW heart has softened toward you and I'm sure if she heard your apology it would mean a great deal to her. Do it now Tammy it will be the only way you'll ever know.
Thanks for sharing this personal part of you, you have a gift with writing.