Actually I was going to start a topic on this subject, I have been fading for over a year now and im finding it really difficult comming to terms with the fact that one day either my husband or I are going to die and one of us is going to be left!
At the back of my mind I knew it wouldnt happen but I just felt it was like looking forward to a dream holiday, you never think it going to arrive but it does and thats how I felt about the new system.
Ive become very morbid lately, aswell as enjoying my new freedom, I keep thinking when my aged parents die thats it. Its really hard.
Its not my own imortality that hurts me its for the ppl I love.