by lola28 31 Replies latest jw friends
Jgnat, I told my boss the whole story months ago and he has been very supportive, the few tmes that someone has called me at work he has told them that I have left for the day and that he has no idea when I will be returning aside from that there is not much more that he and I can do to keep them away.
lola
Good job, good boss, smart girl.
Can you imagine how uncomfortable it would be for you righ now if you were working for the JW?
Hi Lola, I've been looking briefly at your history. I'm sorry I didn't see you when you initially came on in June. Are you married, and is this brother who's pushing up on you, wanting you to go to work for him, is he single and possibly seeking out a mate? Your story is painful. I'm sorry things are not going the way you would've expected. I hope that you can strike the balance between what you want by being in the truth as opposed to what you really need for your happiness in your life.
Prophecor, I'm only 21 and not married nor do I want to be. But this brother always makes sure to tell me that there is a place in his company for me. Like thats going to happen.
Jgant, I always realized that I could never work with the brothers and sisters. Even if I lost my job and had no other options I would never consider working for the brothers and sisters. I have also heard about the way he treats those that work for him and I am in no hurry to be treated like dirt.
Lola
Get ready for the sheparding calls. If your friend tells the elders about your doubts, they'll be forced to reign you in. Remember you don't have to answer. Expect to be asked if you believe the WTS is Jehovah's faithful slave. If you answer in the negative, you will most likely be DFed. Be careful!
If the woman that you once studided with is young and somewhat new to the truth, she'll feel it her civic duty to bring this to the attention of the elders, in order that your life might be saved, as well as her own. You know the guilt trip that we've been on. Knowing one of our members in the truth were involved in unrighteous activity, and keeping it to ourselves would make us as if being bloodguilty, were we not to have this exposed. In a similar vein, were she not to inform on you ( Dime You Out ), whatever problems you're experiencing would no doubt keep you swirlling in a sea of doubt until you completely disappeared from off the radar screen. Ooooppps, I'm sorry, that's already happened.
Get prepared for the cavalry to come calling. Though I know how troubling it can be to have weaknesses in your beliefs, and having no one pay more than the trivial attention to your world, I too realize that some of those elders have lives that are incredibly complicated, working eight hours a day, dancing to the WTBTS beat of keeping thier families spiritually fed as well as all thier own insecurities they're certain to feel. You might be surprised as to the numbers who are in those positions who have nagging doubts of their own. I'd look forward to no longer being associated with the truth in a shorter amount of time if it is truly your belief that there is something amiss in the organization.
Prophecor,
I am well aware that at some point I will have to choose what to do. Do I continue to fade, or do I take a stand and free myself from the society?
At some point we all have to make decisions that are hard, I just don't know what to do yet. While I have had very strong doubts about the "truth" there are still some that I care about in the congregation. And I know that if I DA myself I will lose everyone. I guess the reason I haven't DA'ed or gotten DF is because I don't want to hurt those that I considered friends. A sister once told me that if I ever got DFed she would die.Yet this same sister never called me to see if I was okay.
I realize that elders are very busy they have to deal with everyones issues but aren't they supposed to at least make an effort?
lola
Hey Lola. I'm not defending the elders, or trying to make you feel slighted that you still go to the Hall. I feel for those of you who are still in. I still go thru varying degrees of vasillating back and forth between asking myself, " What if it's the truth, regardless? " I never meant to stir up any unsettling feelings regarding your situation. I only acknowledge that you're in a particularly difficult space. Just the reality of the situation.
I was one who wasn't ignored so much as I was one who was not taken seriously as regards my situation. One day, I just disappeared. I was just not there. I've been invisible for over 10 years now. I feel for you, Lola, as you come to have to make the hard choices. I'll respect your decision no matter which way you decide, I don't judge anyones course in or out of the truth. There are no easy answers. Only, more, complex questions.
I wish for you only to find peace, whether inside or out, just as long as you get some peace.
Arthur
So she basically said, "I'm sorry YOU feel that way"--the problem being YOUR feelings instead of HER actions or those of the congregation? She may be feeling hurt herself, but it's more her feeling sorry to learn you are now among The Walking Dead (in her mind), than it is her taking it personally--my guess anyway.Should you have done something differently? There's no right or wrong choice. It's fine to share your feelings with others.
BTW I think it was very rude of her to call you at work and ask if you are materialistic or worshipping another god. Honestly!
Lola28, I'm "with" Rebel8 on this. And those people are NOT within their rights to "visit" and phone you at your place of employment!!! How totally unethical and unprofessional, whether professionally religious or not!!!
Frannie
lola : So what happens next? Do you think I should get ready for the elders to start calling me? Should I have kept quiet about the way I was feeling?
A suggestion:
What happens next? - the enemy would try to steer you away from God. Try to put your hands on a King James Version Bible and read John 1:1 in there.....do some research and praying
No, it was good you did not keep quiet.
I am not an ex-jw or a jw but have spoken to one over the phone....they are very angry people.
Jesus is the ONE we all should seek. He died on Calvary, shed His blood to save us so we would have life more abundantly and to be happy...try Him as your personal Lord and Saviour.
Hibiscusfire
