Often times, when i was out there preaching, i would think of how depressed i was a lot of the time, how worthless i felt because of the sin of masturbation. I used to feel a little funny about 'helping' others w the wt message that left me feeling like that. 'Course, i thought it was my own fault that i couldn't measure up dispite my own best efforts. It brings up the question, should unhappy, falling short in 'fruitages of the spirit' type jws be out there pretending that they have something better? Should not the patient heal himself before becoming a doctor?
On the subject of 'spiritual', spirit is one thing that a jw is not allowed. Spirit causes rules, directions, doctrines, theologies, chronologies, heirarchies, authorities to be flouted, snubbed and pissed off. Most jws wouldn't know spirit if it possessed them. They a taught that it is reading an old book, a new magazine, or reciting words.
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