by JH 17 Replies latest jw friends
Did your "anger or hate" for the JW Organization go up or down since you left the Org? When you read all the stories on this forum about other people's experience, does your anger resurface?
Could you go as far as saying that what they did to you or your family is unforgivable, keeping you constantly mad at them.
I am still bitter towards the WTS, despite it being eleven years now since I broke with them.
At times, though, I surprise myself with how trusting I still am towards JWs. Just today, the local Kingdom Hall approached the Power Supply Company where I work, arranging to get some new wiring inpected and connected. Such was my confidence in the the WTS to do things strictly by the law, that I did not even question that the work had been performed by properly licensed tradesmen.
(Usually, I would mount a mini-Spanish Inquisition!)
But no, I think I will resent forever the Watchtower Society as a mind control cult - for the harm it inflicted on me, and the harm that it continues to inflict on others.
Oooh, Goody. Another Kiwi. Hi Jack.
I am angry at me. I put up with cognitive dissonance for way too long.
I knew some of the stuff my father was pushing on me as truth didn't make sense, but I let him bully me with, "Because it's the Truth", "These people are Bible scholars", These people are spirit directed", and I never took him to task on any of it. I never made him prove anything.
I ended up letting my family get indoctrinated into the foolishness even though I could never bring myself to 'get in'.
I am mad at me.
This is what the N.Y. Times should read:
CRIMES AGAINST HUMANITY - 12 members of Jehovah's Witness Governing Body are on trial at the Hague (See Page A2).
They hold session this very day at the Hague regarding the Baltic massacres and these KILLERS from Brooklyn voyage the globe in luxury espousing doctrines that KILL daily. Simon Wiesenthal died this week after 60 years of hunting the German S.S., who are no different than the G.B. The only difference, the S.S. had the power to kill. Yes, my friends, these men should be hunted down and prosecuted to the fullest extent for their crimes. I'm angrier each day I read about the events that occur due to these men who sanction murder, pedophilia, and the emotional death (shunning) of millions (over the years).
After I left I stopped caring, but over the years I have become incensed at the permission given to all cults, and yes, especially JWs.
I hate em, always have always will. If my family would make a mass exodus that would be great and I would think about them a little less, but I will always despise what the WBTS stands for.
I am full of hate, but am not sure who to direct the hate towards. It is difficult to hate a mindless faceless Organisation, but there are no people as such that are still living to blame, so the hate all seems pointless.
I have ended up hating myself for being too gutless to leave ten years earlier, before I married and weaved an even more tangled web from which I can see no satisfactory escape.
I hate the mechanism of the JW Org. The robotic expectations they have towards their own members. The one size fits all mentality. If 90 year old granny can go out in the field service at 20 below zero, so can you mentality.
I guess this picture would also be appropriate
Perhaps its because I was a child witness that I feel no anger towards WBTS but I do feel a lot towards my mum, who foced me into it all.
Some would say that it wasn't her fault because she was brainwashed into it all but the way I see it, she was the adult who was supposed to be looking out for her kids and she let them trick her, if I can see it now as an adult then why couldn't she?!
