Ever wonder what life would have been like if you hadn't been a witness? (page 2)

Junction-Guy

I would have missed out on a whole lot of anger,depression,confusion,and anxiety. Did I forget anything?

Actually, the meetings, field service, and conventions were a barrier against my abusive non-JW father. I know that without that we would have killed our parents. It gave us an outlet outside our abusive home. It seems strange to say it, but the abuse at home was much worse than the spiritual abuse at the KH. I just stayed too long at the KH. Having been in support groups for abused children and those with alcoholic parents, I know that the past can be overcome and life be joyful again or for the first time. So it can be true of a JW past.

Blondie

FlyingHighNow

Blondie, did the WTBTS ever begin to feel like a great big abusive parent to you? Their Jehovah and their approach to God felt very abusive, after awhile, to me. They used fear and constantly telling me I just didn't measure up, just like my mother and maternal grandmother did. The only thing they didn't do was beat me black and blue and bloody. They did neglect me like my mother did, when I was ill. They held back their love like my mother did. It's funny though, because my sister, youngest brother and my brother in law and my nephews have been so abused themselves as children, they DON'T see how abusive the ORG. is to them. They are used to that kind of treatment.

JW83

Welcome to the board tsfm!

I know what you mean. I feel like I'm 6 years behind in education & I'll always be 6 years behind, as well as all the horrible years as a Witness kid. No friends, no sport, no outside activities, having to be different, no education prospects, constant paranoia, depression, suicidal thoughts, immature adulthood ... I still haven't travelled, only just finished degree, and got pregnant & married too 'young'.

My parents became dubs when I was 7, so I remember life before ... and it was sweet ...

blondie

Blondie, did the WTBTS ever begin to feel like a great big abusive parent to you?

Actually, once I learned to deal with the abuse at home and the alcoholism, I had the tools to recognize and deal with the abuse at the KH. Eventually, I realized I had to leave "home." It basically was a 3-step program.

1. Sexual, physical, emotional, verbal abuse at home

2. Alcoholic/drug abuse by parent

3. Spiritual abuse in the WTS

Each step was a healing one and made me stronger to deal with the next.

Blondie

AK - Jeff

I have some regrets - I would not be human without that I suppose. When I first recognized the enormity of the lies and deception I was bitter and deeply regretful of the life 'that could have been'. But like others, I would have most likely been 'religious' with some other group that would have distorted truth and lead me down their pathway to life.

I do with though that I had pursued my love of flying and become the commercial pilot that I wanted to be out of high-school.

Instead I got to spend my time selling liner for cat boxes door to door for a long time.

Jeff

tfsm

selling liner for cat boxes door to door for a long time

I don't feel so bad now :)

dedpoet

I gave up a good job to wash windows and pioneer. I have a decent job now I'm out, but I will alwayx regret making the changes I did just so that I could spend all those wasted years spreading the lie.

Ever wonder what life would have been like if you hadn't been a witness?

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