Kate Wild.
Sometimes I go to a meeting. I go to see what is happening and to see if I have made a mistake in refusing this religion in the past. I can't explain it very well, it's just a sort of 'compulsion' sometimes. I even kid myself that I believe it all..........until the meeting starts that is. And then some terrible twisting of scripture happens or is not even used to substantiate some claim. This happens quite a lot nowadays.
Then there are the boast fests. These have become truly amazing spectacles of sheer arrogance and self righteousness. And then there is the blatant money grabbing that happens at every meeting. It's so materialistic compared to when I was young. Or perhaps I did not notice it.
I suppose you may still have a lingering niggle of doubt and going with a friend may be one way of allaying that doubt. I'm guessing, that's all. I may be completely wrong Kate.