hi i am new to posting on this forum, i posted my first post today .
some people are concerned i may have shared too much in my post and are worried this could get me in trouble.
saying that, if the elders are searching on here, there is a chance that my letter could be found, and my comments used to incriminate me.
You can't edit your posts after 30 minutes. I wouldn't worry about it though. However, if you still feel a need to do something about it, perhaps you could request Simon to move the thread to the 'Members Only' section so that it would not be visible to non-members
Great letter, by the way! =)
these are some of the things the wbt$ 'taught' me:.
dishonesty is fine if it's to trick people into joining the cult.. if your spouse stops believeing, the best thing you can do is break up the family.. the laws of the governing body overrule any other laws...or else!.
my friends are conditional.. avoid loving people, they'll only let you down or get df'd.. unintelligent dumbos are better than intelligent ones if the dumbos are elders or above.. hate is better than love.. i am not good enough and god will probably enjoy killing me.. demons will appear in my room at night.. ignore practicallity if being practical or loving prevents the leaders getting money or praise.. god hates.
these are some of the things the wbt$ 'taught' me:.
dishonesty is fine if it's to trick people into joining the cult.. if your spouse stops believeing, the best thing you can do is break up the family.. the laws of the governing body overrule any other laws...or else!.
my friends are conditional.. avoid loving people, they'll only let you down or get df'd.. unintelligent dumbos are better than intelligent ones if the dumbos are elders or above.. hate is better than love.. i am not good enough and god will probably enjoy killing me.. demons will appear in my room at night.. ignore practicallity if being practical or loving prevents the leaders getting money or praise.. god hates.
Prayer:
When something positive happens - God is blessing you. Praise God for helping you instead of a starving child in Africa!
When nothing happens - you just need to bear with the problem patiently / your prayer is not according to God's will / you must be doing something wrong. Boo hoo...
When shit happens - God is testing you. But not to worry, God is faithful & he would not test you beyond what you can bear (well in my case, apparently he did!)
it seems that once we became sensible adult humans, we lost our way.
we stopped asking questions.
we submitted to the bidding of the world.
There... I fixed it! Makes nore sense now =)
It seems that once we became brainwashed sheep, we lost our way. We stopped asking questions. We submitted to the bidding of the Watchtower. We stopped doing our true homework. This life isn't about meetings, field service, pioneering, bethel service, following absurd man-made rules & ideologies, abuse of power, disfellowshipping, shunning & conditional love, protecting sex abusers & pedophiles, covering up sexual abuse & victimising the victims instead of helping them, promoting false prophecies, looking forward to the time where billions of innocent people including children & babies supposedly die at "Armageddon", etc. It's about billions of humans being here at the same time to help each other. So I raise this challenge...
Write about what you would change in the world to make it better for every living being.
Extra Credit: Attempt to do so.
so why has the growth flatlined?
why is less time spent in the ministry?
why have aux pios droped by 1/3rd?.
2014 - 100 years of "kingdom rule". Many were in expectation for something big to happen
2015 - Nothing happened. People got disillusioned!
my study conductor lectured me about my attitude this morning!!!!
apparently some sister complained to her that my attitude was irritating.
the sister in question is just bothered by the fact that i ignore her along with her four daughters.
This is how they treat you now... just imagine how they would treat you after you are baptised!
If you have more peace of mind now, imagine how much more peace of mind you would enjoy if you leave!
to all congregations.
re: new songs for memorial.
dear brothers:.
paragraph 12 recommends that we meditate on the weekly reading for the theocratic ministry school.
ok, i'm splitting hairs here.
but there will be no more tms in a week.. somebody isn't keeping up with jehovah's celestial chariot..
coucou,.
i hope you are well?!
i have a few questions that i'd like to adress (if you don't mind of course).
B.For the born-in's/raised-in
1.has the idea of you leaving the org and becoming what the "friends" refer to as apostates ever crossed your mind?
Not until after I learned TTATT. I faded in less than a year
2.when you saw wordly people getting converted, was it for you some kind of reassurance that you were in the right path or did you think they were crazy?
I wanted to think of it as a reassurance, but at the same time couldn't ignore the elephant in the room - what about all those billions who are not "in the truth"? Don't tell me that all of them are not right hearted & that God does not see it fit to draw them in & they would be destroyed at Armageddon!!!
3.were you strong in your faith or were you looking for the next opportunity to leave the organization.
I was viewed as being strong, but I was far from strong on the inside. I didn't have a love or longing for spiritual activities. It was just the association & thinking that it was the truth that kept me in. I wasn't looking to leave until after I learned TTATT
4.what type of jw were you(the zealous type? The Spiritually-weak type? The Moderate type?the Potential fader? The holier than tough type? The humble & well-meaning type?...)
The moderate, humble & well-meaning, potential fader!
for a long time, i've been moving into a place of utmost hope and faith.
universal reconciliation.
as a converted jw - i began my conversion with the joy that there is a hope for something we all would love - a world where each of us sees our fellow kind as a true brother.. i don't think that's an unhealthy way to live.. but - i'm living with the effects of corruptive thinking from a 'sect' - a divisive sect and judgemental sect that has hurt my sense of self.. it's terribly painful to have completely believed one thing, and then completely believe something else.... well that's how it feels to me.. i've read of some here who were jws for years, then became devout born agains for years and now are confirmed atheists.. wow.. how do you cope with the frivolous nature of your 'beliefs' - beliefs that were 'truths' for you in their own time.. i'm struggling - anyone else?.
Alive!:
I struggle with the shame I feel for falling into a cult.
Don't focus on the shame. Be proud of the fact that you found the courage to do something about it!
