Long story short, i have to go to the kh on tuesday with my mum and i havent been in at least a month now. The reaon im going is because when i got my mum to finally let me make my own decision about whether or not i want to be a jw she made me promise that i'd go to the memorial, assemblies and if she had a talk. She's already told me that people have been asking for me and only a few people in my cong know that i dont think it's the truth.
When i was trying to leave a couple brothers really piled on the "encouragement" and i dread to think about what it will be like when they see me again. What with the gb going on about keeping the young ones in. I've already been offered a study twice and i think they're gonna take me turning up at the meeting (then at the memorial in a week after) as a sign that they need to turn up the sheperding juice. I probably wont be able to wait in the car because my mum will have to talk to the ministry school guy afterwards and she has the keys. And of course, I'll have to make my way through a wall of jws to escape.
I think the thing that bothers me the most about it is how insincere it is. I've sat through enough ministry school sisters "talks" to know bad acting when i see it.