Thanks for reviving this thread Kairos.
Your account helps show others that there is indeed life beyond the cult like society we once thought was the truth. There may be rocky times, but in order to be honest and sincere truth seekers, we must step away from the society once we learn of the many, many disturbing aspects of its history and teachings and practices.
We can all maintain our dignity and self respect as we forge a new life.
Well done!