Hi fognomore,
Thanks for opening up and sharing this thread.
We get it. We understand. To recognise that we were duped into a false set of beliefs that shaped our whole life is very confronting.
I know it sounds contrite, but believe me it gets better.
When I look back at my own journey from the early days here on this forum, to where I am now, it spins me out.
Let me reasssure you that there IS life after being a JW, and it is a wonderful life if we allow it to be.
Find those life activities you enjoy, find new friends, and treasure each day. You now have the choice to determine your own life free of the oppressive and controlling FOG from the society.
Sending you much love!