Welcome Shana!
I too was raised in the truth(tm)...At least you are 23....you have a lifetime of "life" ahead of you....
Do your research.....meet up with some posters from this board.
A loving god will not destroy you.....Would you destroy your son or daughter? Heck no...why would he? Unfortunately the WTBS has coherced many into such scare tactics that if a person leaves their organization, that Jehovah isn't with you....wrong thinking...the WTBS and Jehovah are 2 different things. So that is why you are so scared right now...calm down...Many of us here have experienced just what you are feeling right now.
ok...looking forward to your next post.
Codeblue