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shana97490

Hello Every body,

I'd like to introduce myself, I hope you will well understand me (indeed, Iam a 23 yeas old french girl).

I am very happy to see that several personn has lived the seam experience has me so they are abble to understand better what I feel and who can help us to live better ans follow our way forward life(i hope you will understand what I mean).

I was born in a JW's family, and when I got 12 I begin to ask me some question and have some doubts about this ''thruth".

When I begin to have my boyfriend (not JW) I had to lie...we stayed 4 year together but I never had sexual relation because I was affraid of consequency (even if I was not Baptized). But every times "Brother and sisters" told lies to my parents, about me and about what I was doing with my boyfriend (But we never did anything). I did not want to go to conventions, but I had to go to the meetings since I was at my parents home. In the meetings, everybody unaware me they act as if I did not exist as if I was excluded, I was so sade to be among people who are "so called : friend of God and who had to practice LOVE" acting like that.

I love my parents but I am angry with them to have destroy my life, I try today to build my own life but it is not easy, I stil believe that destruction is waiting for me since I leaved the orginisation,

I am waiting for you advices, that you for you patience and apologise in advance for my limited english..

See you soon on the net!

Sassy

Welcome to JWD shana97490. It isn't easy being raised as a Jehovah's Witness. Many of us were and can relate to how you feel.

imallgrowedup

Hello, Shana, and welcome to the board!!!

You have come to the right place! There are sooooooo many people here who have been where you are and completely understand how you feel!! Please stick around and make some new friends! It will help you in your journey to your life free from the WT! And don't worry about your english -- we will work with you to try to bridge the communication gap!!

growedup

P.S. You are NOT going to face destruction for leaving the Jehovah's Witnesses! It is just a tactic they use in their mind control games!

Nosferatu

Welcome to the board Shana! I can relate to what you went through. I felt like the JW outcast. The only things people would say to me at the meetings is "How's school going", and that would be the meat of the conversation. Pretty sad. When the Circuit Overseer was visiting, I usually got more people asking how school was going.

I attended a JW funeral in 2000, and one of the elders who I studied with said "This is where all your friends are. If you're not here, you have no friends". I took that as a complete load of bullshit, since nobody at the meetings took an interest in me. Everytime I would try and get along with people, I would just get weird looks.

I also dated behind everyone's back. It was quite difficult trying to hide phone calls, lipstick on the face and neck, hickies, etc.

It's hard figuring out who to blame for the crappy childhood I had. My mother came into the "truth" when she was in her 30s (someone knocked on her door). I think she would have been better off getting some therapy, to help with her screwed up past. However, the rules are all ideas from the Watchtower Society, not my mother. The Watchtower just intensified my mother's bad personality.

Recovering is a lot of work, but when you see yourself making progress, you begin to feel better about yourself. Think of the long way you've already come, not how much farther you need to travel. Good luck!

Nocturne

Welcome to JWD shana97490! You're going to find plenty of great advice here, and you can learn alot from the experiences of others.

In the meetings, everybody unaware me they act as if I did not exist as if I was excluded, I was so sade to be among people who are "so called : friend of God and who had to practice LOVE" acting like that.

That story is told to often by those who leave the organization....they claim they are true christians because they have "love" for each other, when in fact it's the opposite. Those same people are willing to talk behind your back, spread rumours, and do anything if it suits their needs. Like imallgrowedup said, you don't have to worry about God destroying you for leaving the organization....if anything it would be the organization that would have some explaining to do to God.

Nocturne

nemo

Shana-

Hang in there PM me anytime, I am also currently leaving the organization and have found the same fear, but I keep in mind that God wants me to know the truth about everything (this would include the organization), God is not about lies, trickery or deciet. Although this is a scary path, I firmly believe in the end it will be the one that will give you the greatest happiness.

Don't worry about your English, we here you loud and clear:)

Nemo

shotgun

Welcome shana

Your with good people here

BTW...are you tring to give the male forum members heart attacks

I'd like to introduce myself, I hope you will well understand me (indeed, Iam a 23 yeas old french girl).

Couldn't you lie and tell us your a 63 year old overweight Italian man or something.

happehanna

Bonjour Shana and welcome.

Nosferatu

Couldn't you lie and tell us your a 63 year old overweight Italian man or something.

Agreed. I think I have a subconcious weakness for french women. I've dated many ;)

Celia

Bienvenue Shana Alors, vous etes francaise ? et vous vivez en France ? Je suis originaire du Jura francais. Je vis aux EU maintenant.

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