If you're like me, you'll over analyze as to "Why did I not wake up earlier?"
If so, it's a bitch.
To understand how we were captured for so long:
http://www.hgi.org.uk/archive/cults.htm#.VueDzuargu0
I also strongly recommend reading this
http://www.exitingthejwcult.com/p/if-you-are-going-to-see-mental-health.html
as well as Bonnie's book
http://www.amazon.com/EXiting-JW-Cult-Handbook-Witnesses/dp/1508477132