Well update. I have talked to my wife about my doubts (Not really doubts... I know what the facts are) and she more feels sorry for me 'having no hope'... but I told her I won't change her views unless she wants me too...
She took it all well and there is no real problem. I'm still trapped into going to meeting/service for now... but I feel less pressure.
However I still plan to meet with the elders... I don;t care as much for the outcome now she already knows. I just want to pin them down lol.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4RLOj1tmkQg&index=3&list=PLfbxB0kKayCSZ19X7kmzCwVRE5N44EFn0