"The best of both worlds" only applies when there is good to be had in both "worlds."
Giving voice to my frustrations may let me manage in the mean time, but it also solidifies in my mind that this destructive cult deserves no support from me, including the impression on others that I support it by my mere presence at meetings. I get nothing whatsoever from this cult, once I've managed to play my cards such that I won't lose my wife in my exit, I'll never return.