I share some of these thought /speech patterns,
Apparently this can also be caused by feelings of abandonment,
I think that our experiences can give us quite a cynical outlook,
I often thought about a loving God destroying a naked bloated Biafran kid,
What I was thinking is what is this person going to feel about Jehovah's gracious goodness and be moved to praise his name,
Still we try to think and make sense about everything,
Also, maybe the brothers more so, we just have to shut up and bite our tongues so much I think it leads to a lot of sarcasm etc
Thank you for your interesting post,
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