Hi Sanchy,
Ive been out for 10 years now. Born in, married at 22 (wife 19) I'm now in my 50s & wife still going. We've had all the discussions over the years but she feels the way she dose & has no thoughts of leaving.
Okay. This is how it works for us. I love her with all my heart. I know she loves me so we have worked it out between the two of us. I believe I have the right to believe what I believe so it's only fair I give her the same privilege.
With this & over the last 10 years we have developed a relationship closer than I have ever know.
Your life & story are yours but I must say that one thing & one thing alone has made this possible for us & that is "Practising mutual Respect" As long as your relationship is worth it I would say keep respect at the top of your list & many good things will follow & you Sir will be free as well. I wish you every success, Phats out.
P.S. Do everything you can to NOT get D'Fed. Work it in such a way that you do as little damage as possibe in your congregation so you can still have some resemblance of life, with ALL your family including those that will stay in. Become a (Shinning, "happy" example) of someone leaving & there whole life & family NOT falling apart, Be mindful of your wife's & families happiness, this will make a lot to people looking on with similar thoughts going on to see that leaving dose not = catastrophe. P.