I'm damaged. I'm a survivor - I'm damaged, too. But I'm doing my best to survive as well.
I'm guilty and ashamed - try not to let the cult make you feel this way but don't beat yourself up over this. As someone else at JWN said - you're good to go.
All the Christmas decorations make me uncomfortable - If you're big on christmas - ok. If you couldn't care less about christmas - that's ok, too.
I know it's easy for me to type this but try and own the past - keep any good memories you have and try to discard the bad ones.
Take care
LUHE