In 1980, at about 26 years of age, I quit attending with any degree of regularity and stopped going out in field service altogether. I just got to the point that I could no longer be endorsing this religion when I knew that it wasn't working for me. And while I chose to no longer be a part of it, I would not talk against the Organization because I felt at the time that it might be "me" and I did not want to stumble anyone else from being a part of it.
Nearly twenty years later, with the benefit of this new contraption called the internet, I stumbled upon the "Crisis of Conscience" book and realized that it wasn't just "me".
And while I soaked up the entire book like a sponge, it was chapter 6, "Double Standards", regarding the Malawi/Mexico incidents that really cut the "imbecelical" cord for me!