I actually quit attending memorials at the KH several years before my exit.
They really frown upon crying and emotion.
As if it is 'wrong'.
I need to mourn in a natural, healthy way that may include crying.
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Can you even imagine this scenario:
My JW wife dies and I agree to go to her memorial.
She's well loved, so it would be a full house.
Me, admitted apostate, what? When do i come in? Late. Sit in the back?
Would they even mention me in the talk?
Would anyone acknowledge me on any level?
After years of shunning, could anyone not see the hypocrisy?
I'll stand out front with my own makeshift memorial and simple message for all to read as they drive in:
'You used to love me'