Im sorry you feel that way... Berl but I can truly say I feel close to god and love him because of life itself. It is true that he does have the right to set the standards of laws because he is the grand creator.True if God wasnt loving he would of just killed off all man GOOD & BAD. The fact that we are alive today and have a hope of everlasting life in a perfect world is showing his love. Please Pray to him and try to focus on the qualitys of him that are mentioned in the Bible. I have a great deal of love for him and others that is proof of why Im wriiting to you. Earnestly pray to him about your feelings deep inside you will find yourself and when you draw close to Jehovah he will definitely draw close to you. I had felt the exact same feelings that you had when was just becoming a teen. I hope to talk to you more on the matter but right now im extremely fatigued and think I need some sleep..
Later,
^_^ The Power of X