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  Penn & Teller, what do you guys think of them?

  by Big Dog in

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  i got turned on to penn & teller recently and have gone back and watched almost every episode of "bullshit!

  " and i have to say i am pretty impressed.

  anybody else here watch them, if so what do you think?

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  Oh, I looove these guys! Been a fan for like, twenty years or so. I think I saw them for the first time on Letterman.

  I rented some of the Bullshit shows, and loved them! Esp. the one on genetically modified foods- incredible.

  My guy and I went to see their live show 61/2 years ago, when we were first falling in love. Great show! During intermission, Teller sold me two t-shirts; he's very charming. And after the show, Penn signed my ticket stub and flirted with me. Man, if I hadn't have been there with a date, I mighta got me some of that...
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  Have You Seen My Mother.... The word is out!

  by Bryan in

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  more news tomorrow!

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  have you seen my mother

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  Wow. I'm definitely going to buy it, but I strongly suspect it's going to make me cry. I look forward to reading your story, Bryan.
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  Older men dating teenagers/Lolitas

  by wanderlustguy in

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  lolitas older men with little girls.

  i promised myself only 30 minutes on thisso the timer starts now.

  my perspective on this is probably different than most, i am a male, 32 years old.

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  Danny- I know what you mean, about wasting our youth. When I think of the years I spent as a witness, I do feel a sense of loss, although when you get right down to it, my past made me who I am today, and since I like the person I am, I can't say it was all bad. I've resolved not to waste any more of my time on their bs. Moving on in life is empowering and freeing; bitterness and anger will make you old before your time.
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  How long is too long?

  by Insomniac in

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  just a question, for those who might know.

  how long should you hang onto a relationship, when it's becoming undeniably clear that it's going nowhere?.

  i'm so in love, with the most wonderful person i've ever known.

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  Update:

  So, we were chatting on the phone last night, having a nice conversation, I thought. Then, out of the blue, he volunteered the fact that he doesn't want to get married. Not right now, anyway. The reason he gave was, "I am what I am." WTF? that's not a reason! He then went on and on about how much he loves me, how he doesn't want us to split up...

  So I replied that I've been plenty patient, and I deserve a feckin commitment. I'm proud of myself- although I was choking back tears of rage and betrayal, I didn't raise my voice. In fact, I ended up going numb after a few minutes. I told him that the ball was in his court, that he is the one deciding if we stay together or not. When he repeated that he "is what he is," I replied that I am what I am, too, that I will be getting married, and I hope like hell that he'll be the lucky guy I share my life with, but if he chooses not to be, well that's his decision. There are plenty of men who do believe in commitment and permanence, and perhaps I'd do well to keep my options open.

  Why in hell would he want anything to change? He's got such a hell of a deal: a woman who supports herself and has her own apartment, but who comes over three nights a week to clean his filthy house and cater to his sexual needs, then leaves so he can have his damned space. No wonder he loves the status quo.

  The whole thing got me very upset. I told him I consider it a very bad sign that I don't feel much like fighting for this; a woman only gives up fighting when she ceases to care about the outcome anymore. Also, I consider it a bad sign that I'm starting to look wistfully at other men; I'm not going to cheat on him, ever, but I do find myself looking at guys I know and developing little crushes, idealizing them a bit. Maybe mentally preparing myself for being single again- something he told me I'd never ever be again. Finally I cut the conversation short, telling him that we'd revisit this discussion in one month's time, to see what's changed and decide what to do. He's of the impression that we don't need to change anything, but I can't go on being miserable. Twenty-nine days to go.
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  Older men dating teenagers/Lolitas

  by wanderlustguy in

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  lolitas older men with little girls.

  i promised myself only 30 minutes on thisso the timer starts now.

  my perspective on this is probably different than most, i am a male, 32 years old.

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  There's a flip side to this coin.

  I spent my life pursuing older guys. When I was 11, I used to fantasize about my teacher- he was maybe 50, had grey hair and crow's feet. I used to lean in close to smell his aftershave, and I did feel physically drawn to him. I tried dating guys in my generation, but the ones I fell for hardest were twenty to forty years my senior. These weren't predators, as they were mostly one-sided crushes on my part, and I never had sex with them, but I sure did crave the closeness of an older man. Incidentally, for you amateur psychiatrists out there, I never had a dad of my own; I'm not sure that's as significant as Freud would have us believe, though.

  Did anyone here ever read Lolita, by Vladimir Nabokov? I did, as a teen; I found it highly erotic, and was devastated by the ending. Imagine Lola's sense of loss when the only thing she had to offer men (her youth) wasted away? What sucks is, defining yourself by that image, spending your life as the "younger chick" that older men use to recapture their fading youth, and then one day looking into the mirror and seeing a grown woman. Yikes. I don't want to be 36; I wish I could stay 20 forever, and keep dating guys who get mistaken for my dad. It's easier.
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  Dancing...

  by Country Girl in

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  i've been dancing since i was a little girl.

  i wish i had someone to dance with.

  do you dance?

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  Shweetie-pie, I'd fly down there and dance with you, but I have two left feet. That's what your bro told me, anyway.

  I only dance when I've had too much to drink, and then it's some kinda lambada/crump thing. Very scary.

  I bet, though, that you are not the only one who's looking for a dance partner. Wouldn't it be cool if there was some sort of club, where people just get together and dancedancedance? Why don't you start calling your local friends, and try to get a group together? I know you live really close to a town with a great live music scene, so this might not be so hard to arrange.
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  Girls.............do you wiggle when you walk?

  by vitty in

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  i feel really embarrassed when i walk my dog down the street, as i know i wiggle but cant help it.

  it really seems to have gone out of fashion, a while a go ( ok years ago) when i was young every young girl tried to wiggle when she walked but now they dont know the word!!!

  they just seem to show off their bellies and forget the rear!.

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  I've always tended toward plumpness, and I've always had me a badonkadonk. So, yeah, I've always wiggled to one degree or another. It's not on purpose, it's just what happens when a nice round tuckus is in motion.

  I just lost a bunch of weight since February, more rapidly than was good for me, but I'm happy to fit in smaller clothing. I asked my boo yesterday if he'd still love me when I had no ass. He started laughing, told me that no matter how much weight I lost, I'd still have a coupla nice biscuits to sit on; apparently, I lose weight everywhere but there. Which is good, because my honey loves to watch that wiggle.
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  Back To School--School Uniforms, Good or Bad?

  by horrible life in

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  we just got back from texas'.

  they had their annual tax free weekend.

  with hotel, gas, food, and shopping, we spent $1000.00 easy.

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  I absolutely hated going to a school with a uniform policy. We all knew who had money and who didn't, and we had no opportunity for self-expression. It just sucked. And, my mom said the uniforms cost her more than regular clothes would have.
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  Helping others, is it an ego trip

  by Satanus in

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  a lot of people have a good nature, and naturally respond by helping another in need.

  others see themselves on a mission of helping.

  can helping others sometimes be a way of having influence over others?

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  I find that when I do something altruistic, I get an endorphin rush. Which leads to a craving for more. So I go out and do something else that's selfless and charitable, to get that "high" again. And no, I'm not saying I'm Mother Teresa or anything, it's just little actions I'm talking about. But who cares- if a person feels euphoric after dropping five bucks into a homeless guy's hand, does that make their actions any less worthy?
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  Do you secretly wish for a demon attack - serious question

  by stillajwexelder in

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  i am not trying to compete with fmz as he has a supernatural thread going already but - do you secretlyt wish for a demon attack - serious question - the reason i ask this is because - if i had a demon attack it would mean there was a satan the devil and if there was a satan it would mean there was god.

  what i am trying to say in a nutshell is "a demon attack would actually strengthen my faith" where at the moment it is non-existent almost

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  Insomniac

  Defd: Try not to be afraid of the invisible, made-up boogeymen; they can't hurt you, dear one, as they do not exist.