Doubtfully yours,
A hug to you - it sounds like it's very hard for you at the moment.
Just keep putting one foot in front of the other - and remember that you are not alone.
Take care,
Alive x
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“Even if this wasn’t the Truth, I need the structure.”
by Londo111 ini remember many years back a fellow ministerial servant saying this to me.
he felt that even if jehovah’s witnesses were not the only true religion, the regimented routine of meetings and field service and the strict rules and enforcement provided a beneficial structure for his life.
at the time i thought if this wasn’t “the truth”, i’d have no need for all that “structure”.
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“Even if this wasn’t the Truth, I need the structure.”
by Londo111 ini remember many years back a fellow ministerial servant saying this to me.
he felt that even if jehovah’s witnesses were not the only true religion, the regimented routine of meetings and field service and the strict rules and enforcement provided a beneficial structure for his life.
at the time i thought if this wasn’t “the truth”, i’d have no need for all that “structure”.
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"Even if this isn't the truth, it's the the best way to live' - I heard said many times - I didn't realise it was a version of a global slogan amongst JWs.
Personally, we struggled when we finally said 'that's it, this isn't the only true religion', it felt like our emotional and personal world was subject to a massive earthquake.
BUT, whilst our tidy and very well presented little world has undergone a massive upheaval, we have and are emerging with more insight, more love for each other....we have both taken our own time to travel along our own spiritual journey - our lives have changed beyond recognition, unsupported and not propped up by a highly regimented structure and a human network.
Its been tough.
Tough love - and I'm grateful.
I can't sit with those and identify with those who decide who 'Jehovah' favours and who he doesn't based on non scriptural edicts. To me, that doesn't feel right any more.
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Forget Prince, the chimp from the PG Tips advert died.
by punkofnice ini always liked the pg tips adverts on uk tv.. cooeee, tea mister shifter?.
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-leicestershire-36103383.
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Nooooooooooooo!
Cooo-eee Mr Shifter.
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Oh happy people
by zeb inwhat is it with meetings?.
so often she comes home throws her bag down and stomps around the house.
there are times it thoroughly gets me down.. + supportive comment welcome.
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As a wife, I keenly felt the angst of 'not being a model family' if I went to the meetings on my own -I'd feel terrible sadness and...resentment... my husband was not appointed, no responsibilities assigned ......and in JW world it means you are spiritually 'shite'...
The sad thing is that my husband was a generous and humble type, before he let the JW 'male' culture rub off on him - the association of the cynical elders and hard nosed bullies messed with his character development - I'm sure of that.
We are having real quality discussions these days, we are unravelling the mess and finding peace. Reclaiming our identities, getting grounded in the good parts of our characters.
The culture of JW land is geared towards unnatural tension, blame and frustration.
Hugs to all spouses that are suffering and hurting from the crazy stuff.
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Faith, where now?
by Theburstbubble inso for the first time ever i went to a church service at my local church (coe) and i have to say it was awful!
it was just like a ritual.
the vicar would say something and then the congregation would all say a phrase in unison back to him.
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Regarding ritual - there is a certain beauty in sacred, reverential observance of rituals.
We are all on our own journeys.
I have been regularly moved to tears by being more deeply involved with 'people' who care, are courageous and reverent.
This has been the hardest journey of my life since turning away from meetings and the inevitable loss of close association with my community of some 20 years.
Yet just yesterday, I met several people involved in a community work who glowed with a spirit that reflected true service and humility at the same time.
To me, God is everywhere. I don't understand or yet know the dimensions of eternity and time - but as someone said earlier, spiritually finding the absolute present in your heart is in itself being in the 'Kingdom' moment....
if we are indeed made in the image of a dynamic and eternal God, then surely there is enough information in that very phrase for us to trust that we have a journey to something beyond our present understanding.
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Faith, where now?
by Theburstbubble inso for the first time ever i went to a church service at my local church (coe) and i have to say it was awful!
it was just like a ritual.
the vicar would say something and then the congregation would all say a phrase in unison back to him.
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I've been to a few baptist services - it seems there is room for diverse perspectives within the congregations - I don't see it as a future 'home'...but I'll visit.
I have a very strong spiritual hunger.....I used to love the JW bible studies way back, I just can't stomach that I had no choice but to accept teachings as current 'truth' at the time, when later, much is adjusted and changed, after I had seriously worked hard to study and make a particular 'old' interpretation 'work'.
I hated religion when I first met the witnesses.....I thought they were 'different' - over the years I couldn't live with a hurt conscience when I strongly could hear manipulative language and unloving guilt tripping.....and so much more.
Be patient. Church of England is extremely ritual based, so no surprises there. It wouldn't be for me as a 'home'.
I'm not looking for a church 'home' right now - but I find beauty and spiritual richness in participating in life and trusting that a greater purpose exists....
The org frightened me towards the end. Maybe I could have lived in the bubble if I had kept my head down, but I couldn't in all good conscience represent an organisation which I believe has a dangerously damaging culture.
Try getting involved in community driven aid, joining groups who are committed to helping fellow folk. You may find like minded believers who you can comfortably build friendships with....and at the same time, serve. But this way, you don't get to count hours.....how terrible was that?!!!!
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Jehovah's Witness Church Release Statement
by truthseekeriam in"we are saddened to hear about the death of prince rogers nelson, who was baptized as one of jehovah’s witnesses in 2003," the church said in a statement obtained by people.
the church said that prince "found fulfillment as a witness and in sharing his faith with others.
http://www.people.com/article/prince-dead-jehovah-witness-release-statement.
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Really? I wonder if he too was conflicted, and disturbed by elements of JW.org.
Did Prince hear about the ARC? Did he too watch the live testimonies from the leadership?
I wonder, did Prince feel comforted and at peace with the direction of the organisation? Did his heart thrill to listen to the manipulative phraseology of the G.O.D.? Was he like many, disturbed and hurt?
How does anyone know what was really in his heart....? Certainly, the 'spokesman' for the church wouldn't truly know - or would they?
I hope he found peace and joy with hope for the universe.
RIP Prince.
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Victoria Wood dies
by Xanthippe ini'm shocked to hear that victoria wood has died of cancer.
she was only 62, so sad.
she was one of the first female comedians, and paved the way for the those women that followed.
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One of a kind - 'spank me on the bottom with the woman's weekly' - she was brilliant, utterly brilliant.
Very sad.
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Since leaving WTTS have you joined a new church or just continue with the new beliefs you have discovered under no religion?
by AmIright inshare your thoughts ?
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I haven't joined a church .....but I have explored a little....learning, seeing things from different perspectives....
This is my journey and my accountability - over 20 years ago I was taken through a bible study of two books which was a programme of 'truth' at which each point and paragraph I had to 'understand' and grasp the spiritual insight offered to me - we prayed that I 'would let these 'truths' sound down into my heart..... And.... The invisible men who interpreted these truths changed their minds, again and again.
I've lost so much -and i wouldn't wish that on anyone.....don't let men demand to be masters of your faith....I did. And I'm paying for it......
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Happy Birthday to me!
by awake!watcher ini am an inactive awake "witness" who recently had a birthday.
most of my family is in.
my hubby is awake, with no family in.
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The spin is that Birthday celebrations make it all about the 'created' and not the 'creator' - - so we don't follow the way of the world with big, self centred celebrations.
At one time - I could reason on this - but over the years, I have seen the most decadent bridal showers, baby showers with gifts that went way beyond the norm.
I'm not being sour grapes here - but I remember attending a young sisters bridal shower, over 50 were there....traditionally it's meant to be a intimate gathering of womenfolk, with a little anonymously given item for the kitchen, like a ladle, tea towels etc.....
This party was 'the norm' amongst young witness sisters - incredibly expensive lingerie and beautiful things wrapped up like something out of a movie ....nothing practical for a new home ;-)
And that's fine, really, but I noticed her couple of non-witness ( grandmother etc) family members were visibly shocked, and utterly embarrassed by their humble gifts of tea towels....
The same close relatives that never got a birthday card or gift, a Mother's Day card, flowers etc.
I wonder what they quietly thought about this event, where champagne flowed from midday to early evening..... If the 'outside' could see 'in' .......I'm not being bitter, or a humbug ( I had a great time!) it's just such a strange and weird contrast to our proclamation of every witness bring an ordained minister....our proclaimed simple way of life, the discreet turning away from 'living it up' like the 'world'......